did you know mcdonald's own chipolte and other random facts that aren't the facts you should take from this.

http://www.hrc.org/buyersguide/buyersguide.htm

this looking for a new roommate thing is for the birds. i'm sick of it.

stan berenstain died. that's sad. i was a big fan of the books. random thing taken from the obit-dr suess was the head of children's books at random house. who would have thought?

i'm always late to the cool kids music game if i ever even get close, but the franz ferdinand album is great. and i no longer think its just a good talking heads clone album

instead of spending time on my now two weeks over due paper i looked at my grad school's (why i just got paranoid about putting the name of the school i don't know) incomplete policy-which the prof has to grant me and i have to have been ok up until then. not sure that's the case. fuck. work.

i think i'm going to explode

i have way too much to do. and all these interviews i am not prepared for in the slightest.
and home work and making up student teaching days and getting shit done. its bad in a bad way.
and don't feel like i can gripe to people, because i put myself into this and some of my peeps are going thourgh their own shit. ok less blogging more working.
but the fucking color printer is not working and this is a serious problem for me!!!!!!!!

rarely do i wish i had an ipod, but this is one of those times

of course i have my computer with me so all i really need is headphones and it would be the same effect.
my concentration for the semester is gone. this is bad. i have a lot of overdue work, plus much work for tomorrow.
had a concept dessert last night, wasn't as bad as it could have been.
saw multiple married couples that i went to high school with on my plane back to nyc this morning.
saw the symphony yesterday but i would have rather been at the ballet. oh and let's not talk about my chicken consumption friday night-but it met at least one of my rules, and well it was yummy.
thanksgiving dinner was not yummy. my dad is a much better cook than my mom's friend. and i was sad i didn't get to see any of the grandchildren.
oy but i did see my grandmother. she is so small and frail and wheelchair bound, and not even having enough strength to reposition herself in the chair to get comfortable. and she didn't even read the letter i sent her as she doesn't read at all any more. quite sad.
ok i'm just procrastinating now.

why did rent suck so profoundly much?

la vie boheme-my fav song is so dated. and they shot on location-but not in new york. and was all the fake lookingness intentional? why? it was stupid.
off to the burgh
happy t-day

oh right add to the shittiness my roommate is moving jan1

anyone know anyone looking for a place. $750 its nice i'm not as messy as i used to be.

today's randomness

went on a field trip today to the scholar's garden on staten island. that is a whole post in an of it self. but we were looking at a mosaic that was made from recycled goods. now the head teacher wanted us to talk about the significance of the mosaic in terms of what it depicted and would have been cool picking up on the idea of recycling. but this woman, who knew this was a group of third graders kept getting them to try and guess where the glass came from-ok it came from beer bottles, then she wanted them to guess which specific brand. the green was heiniken she finally gave in and told them the brown was bud light. its so ridiculous that i don't need to go into how fucking wrong it is to get 3rd graders to have brand identity with beer.

my internet is totally fucked and will be for a while, b'c who is home during the day to wait for the cable guy? esp with no cable.....so at cafe regular i am now, and the 12th st ladies i will be spending lots of time. this fucks with my life though.

email i got from a friend at a news service. if you know my thoughts on menstrual products you know he got much more info back than he was expecting...: Do you, or does anyone you know, use organic tampons? One of my reporters is doing a story on them, and it'd be nice to get a quote from a, uh, user.

thought question for the week: was my insanity over the top and i fucked up things with the non-hassid or is he just unavailable or a jerk or both? i end with my favorite word: arg.

i've failed you mr casorio

my french skills have gone to shit. i got a 3 line email from a belgium friend of mine announcing his new address. i got that that was what it was off the bat-form lends itself to that. but i had to read it 3 times to understand everything, and i'm still guessing with one phrase (an educated guess mind you, but still a guess)

i had more interesting things to say but forgot.

congrats to SS on her second job offer is as many business days.

what i ate today

oj
chocolate chip muffin
water
3 dumplings
medium angelika popcorn
mint chocolate chip ice cream cone (from cones an excellent place that i want to frequent all the time. they had this wine ice cream, amazing, and so freaking smooth and so seriously could give you a buzz. yum port tasting ice cream)

saw the squid and the whale. i didn't know this was a thing at amnh. not sure how much i could relate since my parents are still married. but i do live in park slope and my dad is a tennis playing academic intellectual. he also though is not an asshole and doesn't sleep with his students or be so selfish and fucked up.

the best dessert i've had in a long time

i had a very nice culinary experience last night, with some very lovely friends. we committed to sticking out the wait at frankie's on court and had a nice drink at mini-bar, across the street, where the owner had me sample 3 wines to choose one b/c the company that delivers his syrrah is strike and he's out of it (making me wonder what the adjuncts at NYU i know are doing about their classes) and then got a tour of the restaurant from the owner because i had gone up to him to ask what escarole was-i just couldn't picture it. so i got him to get a piece from a line cook. i didn't end up getting anything with it. so he, the owner was incredibly high coke we assume, but chatted with us throughout the night and after the check came sent us out this amazing dessert-worth it to go back just for red wine and this dessert of prunes and marscapone. i have a very tenuous relationship with soft cheese that is not mixed in with other things (ie ricotta), but this stuff was damn good and the prunes were awesome. not the prunes of your grandmother's compote.


oh i got reported back to me that i was called unbelievably bold for asking on a third date the following types of (in my mind very standard) questions: so how long do you think you'll be at this job-is this the kind of stuff you want to do for a long time? what kind of relationship are you looking for (ie a date or marriage with kids, not about us at all)? and i thought he would have labeled me bold for reading him a children's book in the middle of a bookstore-which had clearly seriously embarrassed him but was supposed to evoke a that's so cute/sweet reaction
no wonder i had no interest in this guy

why do people smoke?

i was hanging out with this kid last night. he mentioned that he had started smoking again (after quitting 3 weeks ago, after starting two months previously, after having quit a couple years ago). i get that his roommate smokes, but why? its so gross and so stupid. and he's totally talked about how stupid he thinks it is, but not just stupid how it makes him feel ill and he doesn't like it. so why fucking start again?

i'm cold. not entirely sure why, maybe its the high of 50 and possible lack of heat in my apt.

all guys out there: don't tell me i'm beautiful if you don't want to date me

especially if we've been on a few dates. it just makes me wonder what's wrong with me then.

i'm tempted not to vote

but its shitty not to vote. but what about when you don't want to vote for any of the candidates, and the guys who don't have a chance at all seem like bigger assholes than the real contenders? i guess i should write marty markowwitz a letter to tell him why i think he sucks, b/c aside from the ratner deal i actually think he's an ok guy. but public advocate, seriously they are all horrible, and mayor, i think i'm going to go for the green guy. he seems decent enough. arg. and i don't know anything about the charter revisions on the ballot and am even confused about the transportation bond act, but think i will vote yes as i'm not entirely sure why state debt is a bad thing, i mean i guess i kinda get it, but not fully.

randomness

1. i live at mile 6.5 or so of the marathon. at the end of my block is a huge overpass which every year has a marathon targeted ad. this year it was from tylenol-saluting marathon runners at mile 8. dude its not mile 8, how much would that suck if you got excited at how far you at come so quickly, except that you hadn't
2. my roommate went on a second date with this guy (who i happened to know of from the old usy days) but in any case they were meeting up at my apt and he came upstairs. i noticed how tall he was (so much taller than he was when he was a freshman-so adorable back then) and got him to change a couple of our light bulbs. i only had 2 bulbs though or i would have gotten him to do more. hope this relationship goes somewhere....
3. got scolded for going over to the 12th st ladies for doing laundry, although i swear it wasn't an issue before. oh well. i have clean underwear and sheets. hallelujah

i still need someone to change my lightbulbs

shout outs to:
chill for her big 28, and for the promotion. rock on gurl.
the kids who cleaned up after brunch at my place-many thanks.

start a new school tomorrow, need more sleep. have much work to do.
but a decent and certainly yummy weekend overall. ran into an old coworker in prospect park which was cool, she looks awesome. i look fat. had a drink outside in the late afternoon at bar toto. i love that place, although i was definitely chilly by the end of my glass of wine.

marathon ran past my place today. i always love that. its just a feel good thing to watch all these fast crazy people go by. i missed chi chi though i think i was walking down the stairs...
must write paper and do laundry.

oh yeah i forgot why i started that post

i said goodbye to the principal-who has said nothing to me for the past 9 weeks-today and thank her for the placement. she said she heard good things about me, and mentioned a potential position as a middle school science teacher next year. the ap who observed me on monday and said nice things about me also mentioned it. its tempting.... we'll see. i wonder if they need full time, or i could do part time and have another gig. shitty pay and i don't want to always be a classroom teacher. oh the fake kind of irony. and seriously i'd need to work out my mental game and get heels.

but the middle school kids are taller than me

so today i taught math at 8am (there at 7:40 to prep) went to the bronx to work for 2 hours b/c i was 30 minutes late (collecting science homework to grade) then travelled back to brooklyn. i led an ok science lesson, but i totally did it. i so should have broken the kids into groups and had them do it. oops. but i got the lesson, but they were not constructing it for themselves. next time. trial and error, and reflection. this whole bank street mantra of reflection might actually have something to it.
i feel like i am at the denouement, but i'm totally not. my semester is only getting more work heavy and i start a whole new teaching placement on monday. part of it is this nice weather. while i love it, its totally throwing me for a loop. also let's not talk about my fake money situation. ok. that's taken care of. the zoo was gorgeous today, all the leave are in color just right before peak. it made me really happy to see since i've spent so little time outside or out and about, and i also won't this weekend since i agreed to pinch docent at esp-which is ok b/c i need to feel more comfortable there and practice my tours more.
ok birthday cards to make.
later

the disadvantage of high ceilings

even with the step ladder no one in my apt is tall enough to change light bulbs, not that the season of eternal darkness os upon us this is a problem. all my tall friends live in manhattan and won't come to brooklyn just to change my lightbulb. how did we do this before-answer we didn't there are a ton of burnt out bulbs. but we have now reached a critical mass of burnt out bulbs.

my division lesson failed miserably today. seriously they had no clue, and i knew i wasn't making any sense. we will try again on thursday.

but i got observed yesterday and got good remarks, which was nice. and my advisor like the layout for my pretrip lesson so that's good. still exhausted and much work behind.

the real problem is my lack of meds come sat and not figuring out how the hell i am going to get them. fucked can you say. or really vertigo can you say...

happy birthday hoya!