thoughts for a sunday morning
(NB Ari shapiro of npr, the famous one, not the one i know is my age, the one i know is a year younger than me. not going into how that may or may not make me feel)
categories of thoughts
1) my body
2) my connection to the chagim this year
3) my wanting to be in a relationship
4) others?
1. the main things are A) my body figuring out what it means/how it acts not being on hormonal birth control. spotting what is that/annoying b)hard to keep as active in good ways when working and that interrrupts my schedule and it gets colder and i dont want to bike as much. i got offered the best job last night, but not one i can take...taking a kid to her trapeze class and in payment would get the class paid for. but i can barely get my ass to class, i can't get to brooklyn and back in time for class.
2. last big thing that i did without mr civic. and in fact the crew that i had developed for going to neilah, everyone has moved away
ended up not fasting, but didn't get coffee or spend money. did forget to light a yizkor candle. do think that people who think fasting is the most important part of the holiday have it all wrong.
(why no avinu malkenu on shabbat, but do have yk on shabbat, but then do do it at ne'ilah)
basically it comes down to i want a consistent community and an immediate community that is a family-me partner and children and people we constantly surround ourselves with
3.
see first part of connection to holidays and feeling alone
boy update
feeling a little over the rabbi. he's not nassisitic, but is self consumed, i need the talking parts to be a bit more two way. if he gets in touch will still totally hook up, but not initiating anymore
the frayed out chabadnik is no more. pissed him off, but don't care
told the yinzer i was going to lay off and let him decide what happens. and he's been in touch since. nothing more than friends, but still nice
not getting any responses on the cupid or the craigslist oh well
4. my mattress sucks!
need a light box! fight SAD as much as i can.
not sure what i am getting myself into having this flirty, but not flirting on my part relationship ith one of the maintenance guys at work
going to yoga, more thoughts. esp on feeling connected to judiasm, community, chagim, tshuva etc.
categories of thoughts
1) my body
2) my connection to the chagim this year
3) my wanting to be in a relationship
4) others?
1. the main things are A) my body figuring out what it means/how it acts not being on hormonal birth control. spotting what is that/annoying b)hard to keep as active in good ways when working and that interrrupts my schedule and it gets colder and i dont want to bike as much. i got offered the best job last night, but not one i can take...taking a kid to her trapeze class and in payment would get the class paid for. but i can barely get my ass to class, i can't get to brooklyn and back in time for class.
2. last big thing that i did without mr civic. and in fact the crew that i had developed for going to neilah, everyone has moved away
ended up not fasting, but didn't get coffee or spend money. did forget to light a yizkor candle. do think that people who think fasting is the most important part of the holiday have it all wrong.
(why no avinu malkenu on shabbat, but do have yk on shabbat, but then do do it at ne'ilah)
basically it comes down to i want a consistent community and an immediate community that is a family-me partner and children and people we constantly surround ourselves with
3.
see first part of connection to holidays and feeling alone
boy update
feeling a little over the rabbi. he's not nassisitic, but is self consumed, i need the talking parts to be a bit more two way. if he gets in touch will still totally hook up, but not initiating anymore
the frayed out chabadnik is no more. pissed him off, but don't care
told the yinzer i was going to lay off and let him decide what happens. and he's been in touch since. nothing more than friends, but still nice
not getting any responses on the cupid or the craigslist oh well
4. my mattress sucks!
need a light box! fight SAD as much as i can.
not sure what i am getting myself into having this flirty, but not flirting on my part relationship ith one of the maintenance guys at work
going to yoga, more thoughts. esp on feeling connected to judiasm, community, chagim, tshuva etc.
posted by brookburg at 8:51 AM
