need something to read, regretting working this week

did you miss me?

gone for 10 days in the land of beautiful children and then awesome weather and all i have to say is, i can't decide if i want to read Gary Shteyngart's new book. i don't even know anything about it. i will admit with guilty pleasure that i enjoyed his last/first one (has he had anything since?) but i can get author fatigue oftly fast and i assume that this one wll be in the same vein. ok just checked he also wrote absuridstan which i totally without guilt loved. this makes me more dubious, to like a third book of an author without being super sick of the style. also in a colson whitehead kind of way i am irrationally jealous of him, his success and what i assume to be his awesome brooklyn apt ( just checked, les which, well cant decide how i arbitrarily feel about that )
since i declared this to be the summer of library books i have bought several, but only in paperback which means i won't get around to this one for a while in anycase, and likely i will just give in read it and i assume like it.

eat n' park jersey style

took advantage of the car yesterday and went to the delaware water gap area and went canoeing. it was lovely. we of course got off to a later than we should have start and had rush a bit/fight the wind a lot. by the end we were mainly going straight down the river. we stopped for dinner at a diner-what one does in jersey. this one could have been eat n' park.

went for a drink at farrell's which used to be the always hopping neighborhood, windsor terrace bar that was really for the old school locals/fireman but the likes of us went to. then a newer bar opened across the street and last night, despite the cheap drinks and large ass styrofoam cups the bar was dead (we went there b'c the place across the street was too large). was my first time there, but didn't feel in any way like i got the experience.

feels like the summer is over, even though it is not. got my flight for the conf in minneapolis---i have an 8:15 am flight. that's lame. head out for seattle in a couple hours, i think i have a middle seat--blah. but should be a nice trip, i don't know how to dress in 70 degree weather any more. but its a problem i am glad to have.

going wedding dress shopping today...no not for me

the more friends get married, and the more i catch the occasinal wedding reality tv show the less i want to do with the whole money expense enterprise. i am flly aware that some of this is coping mechanism, as if i stay with marathon we will likely never get married. he's all for an " i love you party" but the part that means the most to me is standing in under he chuppah in font of people. and yeah i guess if i'm doing that i might as well have the whole party thing...but it just seems like such a hassle and so much money and such and such. and i'm not going to have it so its easier not to want it...

about to eat the last of the slaw.
did not get up and do 8am coop shift. surprise, surprise.

i need to learn/start cooking with spices.

oh yeah. immensly sad.

good friends, couple friends. moving away.
all my friends move or have plans to move.
this sucks ass.
makes me sad and lonely.

k&m left today and while the rest of my week is actually filled and then i head out of town, not sure how i will fill in the summer when i get back and hanging out in general... please people i hang out with, stop moving out of town

still eating cole slaw

i have other csa veggies from last week i need to eat, and last night planned on waking up and making, but instead i am again eating this slaw-more "asian" than "cole" for breakfast and there is still cabbage in the fridge and enough slaw to take to a pot luck.

the uproar over proposed mosques in staten island and "ground zero" really fucking gets to me. it is simple bigotry and racism and nothing else, maybe also xenophobia--even though all members would be us citizens i assume. really it makes me ashamed.

hung out with a very yummy 9 week old yesterday. i never used to understand when people would refer to cute things, particularly dogs and kids as delicious or saying that they wanted to eat them up. something changed, b/c i totally use the phrase in a serious manner whenever appropriate these days. this baby was delicious.

making a shiva call tonight for a coworker, younger than me for her dad. it was totally suddenly. even though i totally do, i never know how to act or what to say at these things...

in other humidity news, to shower to not to shower today/this morning. i will shower before the shiva call and be totally sweaty when i get there...but on tap is helping someone pack, pilates, therapist, pick up csa and then stop home to shower...i hate to waste water and shower 2x a day, esp when i often feel jut as gross post shower when i can't get fully dry.

a head of cabbage makes a lot of cole slaw

and we didn't even use all the cabbage and tossed some from the first attempt at using the food processor. the food processor is cool, but its a lot to clean, i wonder how much use it will actually get around here.

we desperately need the rain that will hopefully fall today, but i also really don't want to schlep around in it...

thinking about my birthday and what i want to do, how there won't be peeps around, if i have peeps etc... want to do something low key. the movie at brooklyn bridge park is brokeback mountain, which i'm not particularly into seeing.

back from jersey--i want a baby. but not ready for one...
so fucking humid

sunken meadow

beach trip yesterday was nice. i didnt love the beach and i'm not sure why. maybe b/c it didn't feel worth the drive, but it wasn't so long to get out there. saw lots of animals (crabs, all dead and washed up) and cool shells and a ton of people fishing. the sand was crazy hot. marathon may or may not have been nipped by a crab. the water was dirty, but not in a coney island gross way and the waves were super calm, i assume bc it was on the sound. beach itself was totally clean though. we got there about 3 and some people were leaving but we were the only ones coming. we left 6/6:30 and there were tons of people streaming in either to fish or picnic or both. made me wonder if something else was going on.

pilates time got changed today so i am a little out of whack with my plan for the day, but hope it will be productive none the less.

need some books for my trip next week. still reading and enjoying the hst collection of espn columns.

i exited the gift shop

i liked the movie, not sure if it was real or not. don[t really care. fun to watch movie. its been playing here (at just one theater) for a long time.

test rode another bike. kona something or other. mr fine maybe. it was ok. short test rides are hard to figure out how if they are the right bike for me, if it will be comfy after 4 miles. i want to be comfy and fast, and feel safe, and be able to ride the occasional 30 miles or so. apparently these are conflicting things in bike geometry and don't go together. went to a 3rd bike shop and am having them build me a bike that i will try on thurs. also, the bikes i'm looking at are about $250 more than i want to spend

marathon's bike frame broke the other day. this is a very sad thing. and will be a big process to get him a new one

going to the beach on the north shore today. i don't have high hopes for the trip, but it's where marathon wants to go...

so sad how dirty coney island beach was today

too hot to write anything else...

test rode a new bike today...more than i want to pay but in my price range

cannondale q4 women's bike. need to ride again and maybe try a different brand to compare. also quick release seats make me nervous and i do not want to have to bother 1) schlepping my seat around with me 2) needing to put it in the right place each time.

good trip to farmer's market today. they have corn already which is fucking crazy to me. so early.

also nice walk around bbg, felt like summer, felt taking advantage of it, was nice to be with my boyfriend.

tired though.

cyclones game with fireworks tonight...

i wantedto eat them all up

had a mini camp with the wee ones this week. they were super adorable and i wanted to eat them all up. have i mentioned that i want a dog, and part of my wanting a dog is wanting a baby.

it has finally been gorgeous here. but next week looks to be awful again. yikes.
why am i still inside.
have stuff to say, comments on dance performances and books, and stuff in general, including my piece of crap phone but i gots to be on my way to pilates soon.