mother fucking shitty credit card bastards

i am paying for this trip with pychecks that haven't come yet so i need to put everything on my credit card-also the best way to get the best exchange rate right? except that that mother fuckers put a 3% foreign currency fee on every transaction i will do there. my hotel is prepaid so i noticed it when looking at my current bill. hello ireland is already more expensive and i'm already getting a shitty dollar/euro exchange rate. mother fucker.

and shitty credit card of the 3 countries that i can't use my credit card to rent a car and get the collision damage waiver woo hoo more fucking money!

so not ready to go...

room not cleaned.
bags not packed.
laundry not done.
loans not consolidated.
banking not taken care of.
jobs not applied for.
sleep not achieved at bedtime.
but the crazy stuff has been thrown out of the fridge.

and i did meet my first f to m that isn't jewish. of course he does go to services most friday nights...and will be on queer eye for the straight guy later this summer.
a couple people came by to see the room. not sure if they guy i liked the most was into the space or not. a woman i could see liking as a friend came by but i don't think she'd be such a chill roommate. the guy i really liked most a i would totally crush on and he's totally gay. sad.

camps went well.
tomorrow first priority-pedicure.

why

when i am leaving town so much so soon, do i still religilously check jdate and CL???? b/c i'm interested in seriously dating someone. but its annoying, i have no time to go on a date before i leave and its stupid to think that i would be able to start something with my upcoming travel schedule. its bad that i am starting this money draining trip with mmm $100 in my bank account. seriously this is a problem and this summer is kissing my savings goodbye!
the wasp and i decided to rent a car for the last half of our trip i think it makes sense. i need to figure out when and where my plane is on thursday. i hope i still have the paper work.
ocean camp was ok. my camp was better, but i don't have to plan!

the break up was a shitty movie

so much romantic comedy potential-vince, jon, references to swingers, but it forgot the comedy part. in one way its nice to see a movie that ends more like real life would than the movies would, but part of going to the movies is also to escape the world.

i did nothing yesterday until i left for dinner. i felt great about that. i needed to sleep. and it was crap outside. sucks that i missed the mermaid parade, but i've done that in the rain and i'd rather not.

camp was fun the kids were cute. now i have time to get back to the real world. i cannot believe that i leave for ireland on thurs. um, not ready and bank account is already drained...

i should sooo be asleep

but two wtf's
1) what the hell is with the people in my neighborhood who leave/set up giant stuffed animals in their yards and leave them out there all the time?
2) why is the only clothing i have that is big on me my underwear-maybe bc its all stretched out.
day 3 of monkey camp went well.

my new lisence expires in 2014. that seems crazy

and the picture is black and white or something. who can tell if its a bad picture its so hard to see.

survived 2 days of monkey camp. tomorrow at the zoo should be easy. the last two days we'll see.

son volt at wfc was good and sitting by the river was lovely. it took them a long ass time to get the sound levels figured otu though and jay farrar looks from the side a lot like story.

i want a chocolate dipped key lime mini pie

but guate girl and i had to bust out of red hook so i could get home to show my apt to people who never showed, even though they email confirmed they would. that so bothers me!!!
red hook has some cool stuff going on. fariway was ok. coop is still cheaper and closer and i think better laid out and has more people of color and neighborhood folks shopping there. finally made it to a bwac show. don't need to go back, the art isn;t that good, but the glass studio also on the pier looks cool and we found this awesome wine/liquor store. seriously they made me want to imbibe lots of wine in a box-which is supposedly good these days.

just made a donation to doctors without borders for the kinasecaster's wedding, but there was no place to specify online that it was in honor of someone. annoying.

ok must go to the museum and prepare for camp. esp after i couldn't sleep last night i had so many anxiety dreams over it.

the f train sounds like a wooden roller coaster

one of silver's blog posts today reminded me why we used to be friends and why i'm sad that we aren't friends now/can't be friends now. i still have a stupid lai we got when we went to the stupid tiki bar associated with lucky chengs hanging on my door knob. now we all know that i collect shit and don't throw it away and want artifact based archives of my life but still.

found a new great outdoor space in lower manhattan-elevated acre. thought i was going to a lunchtime dance performance there yesterday, but instead think i went to more of a dress rehearsal. it wasn't just the lack of other people interested in it, it was how they occasionally stopped and talked about it and then redid things. but they were definately in costume. it was interesting how many people ignored them or that it was totally normal that modern dance was taking place in and around their outdoor lunch space.

last night took slipandslide buddy's little sister out for margaritas and nachos. she and i are just different. we look at the world differently. i spent a lot of time in high school being jealous of or bitter at her, because i wanted all of slipandslide buddy's attention, and didn't get what it was like to have a sibling. i'm clearly over that. but clearly we are different people. it would have been cool if we had developed a relationship while she was at columbia (she's going to be a senior) and i did take her out once to twice when she was a freshman and called her this year, but i don't think we will be boosom buddy's any time soon

bought my first pair of new balance today. i have sneakers woo hoo.

anyone have binoculars or a digital camera i can borrow for my costa rica trip?

seems like this is always the case, but there is a room open in my apt for august 1st $750. quiet. nice apt. contact me if you need a place.

this summer i must check out fairway: red hook and see the QM2 up close-that ship is huge!

fuck a doodle doo aka baby gramps favorite saying

so i lost my post recapping the night and hanks (disappointing musicwise) and my saturday of performance art via iron artist (great fun) and our relationship to water at exit art (a couple of the performances were ok, some of the video was way too dogmatic for me. and there was of course the woe is me i am romantically lonely blah blah blah, don't know why i waste time on online personals, eso when i am going on vacation soon and busy all next week-arg not enough of this camp is planned!

so for an assignment for my children's lit class, which i am otherwise loving, i have to make an autobiographical map of my time as an 8-13 year old. um that time sucked and i seriously try not to think about it at all, too many cringe moments and too many seriously want to make me cry moments and that's before we even get to the whole brother committing suicide thing. bleh, bleh bleh

off to the coop to get recycling bags.
love me!

do i really have to go to work tomorrow?

i was somewhat productive today. first pass at least. and i did my coop make up shift which is kinda huge.
have some good ideas for camp, just have to figure out how to organize them. i want to teach the kids a song or two, but i don't know any. do you?

anyone know what culture the ago/amay call and response often used with elementary school kids is from? google seems to be telling me gambia.

had other stuff to comment on, oh i remember how i'm a snob for not wanting to write some guy back b/c he'd never heard of philip roth. so i asked the ex if he had, and he said no, so that's not really a bad thing, maybe its even better, how could i go out with someone who likes philip roth...

speaking of the ex, there was a while where before bed we would watch 15-30 minutes of a movie while in bed just before going to sleep, and then do this several nights in a row. this is totally a night for that. but no movie to watch and no one to snuggle with-walter is great and all but he's lacking a pulse.

i really hate playing the bitch, and wonder of there was a way fro me to be more direct and less bitchy

so roommate old moved out and left all the furniture. roommate new doesn't want it. i emailed roommate old asking her to ditch it. not sure of my tack level, and directness (something i am supposedly working on in therapy these days). annoying all around.

turned off my alarm and overslept 3 hours. ok b/c i had no where to be, but do have shit i need to get done...

post modern picture books i love it

especIALLY IF david macaulay had anything to do with them. black and white is awesome, up there with my subway by paul jacobs and jennifer swedner which is you've been to my house in the last 6 months there is a good chance i've read it to you. i would do it with black and white but its a library book and i'm too broke to buy it.
also he did a series of books on how some huge and old buildings like pyramids and cathedrals in europe were built, and today i saw a book of his-building the book cathedral-a book about how he made the book. dude do i love it. construction, post modernism, revealing craft techniques, picture books. it so screams brookburg

there is a mountain on my chin

and it won't go away and it drives me crazy. it won't pop either.
aren't we supposed to stop getting zits at some point?

sangria, not my fav drink by far, outside, my fav place to drink, last night at patio. no rain then, could have gone down to coney island, but closer to home is also always ok. and its pouring now. just b/c its the 3 rivers arts festival in pgh is no reason for monsoons here.

renewing my drivers license today, isn't that exciting.

raise your hands if you have a lot to learn about primates real fast

ooh ooh me, me. so i am going to be head counselor for the monkey camp at the museum in two weeks. i don't have to create the curriculum from scratch but i do have to plan a lot, and learn a lot about primates. thank goodness for that well stocked children's library on the uws that is my new home. aren't there any short fantasy books? i need to read several by monday for class. ooh that reminds me, more people i need to call. and errands to run, and licenses to renew.

there are some words that i have an especially hard time spelling, i can't even get them to a place where spell check can figure it out most of the time. the two biggies are: decision, license. sometime when my brother was in high school he could never remember how to spell does, but i could and i definitely bragged and held that over his head

happy birthday silver, 33 minutes late, and thank god i'm not traveling for a while

crazy travel weekend to see my grandmothers look very frail and old, well only my dad's mom. my mom's mom looks the same. neither is high on the quality of like scale. makes me sad.
cried reading a children's book on the train on the way back today, good book though the misfits. details in it are going to make it dated before its time, but nicely addresses a bunch of issues including guys knowing they are gay in middle school.

other stuff i could write, but jorrav, one of my loyal readers heard it all in person tonight.

was wishing silver would call today, but for all i know he dating crazy jessica now that she lives here. and i don't know that silver would really make me feel any less lonely.

springy and hoya-dude that money situation sucks. seriously why do you want to live in this country anyway. you both liek england, seems like it would be easier there.
til later.

don't assume your apt sit is correct until you have a check for the right amount

so the june person moved out, but left all her furniture. rude. she worked out with the previous person to get her furniture (and brought some along) but didn't take any of it, and didn't make any contact with the new person about it.

the other roommate wrote me the check for $50 less than her rent is. WTF?

arg. turned off my alarm and overslept by an hour today. cannot do that tomorrow. must make 8am train.

june is busting out all over, the sheep aren't even keeping score

oh, rodgers and hammerstein how i do love me your musicals.

so i'm thinking that i am fairly pretentious, and not just b/c i use words like zeitgist and archetype and idiom. but b/c i'm so fucking judgmental and can be fairly holier than though with no real reason, just b/c something is different or not how i would do it doesn't make it bad.

conference at the zoo today was cool, i even managed to pay attention for almost all of it, we'll see if i do that tomorrow. i wasn't supposed to talk in my role as note-taker, but the facilitator of our group sucked and i felt i needed to help out and bring some clarity to the group. i think i made one good professional contact. tomorrow i will try for another, but not sure who, as everyone else is from out of town. i could live in Monterey maybe i should sweet talk the aquarium woman.
(who am i kidding, while the coast line was gorgeous, there is no way i could live in california. esp not that small a place, although it would be damn pretty to take day trips on the weekends.)

martin my id guy was at the coop. i so wish i could hang out with him, or he was the uncle of the guy i was dating. actually that would be totally awesome. oh well until next shift.