but will we keep dating

I still really like him, but I feel like he's holding back and it's fucking with my emotions.  Oh what a time to have quit therapy. But that's what friends are for...

went to seattle for spring break, lovely as ever. did not think about work at all. freaking out at the thinking about work i should be doing. and the time/head space i am not making to do so.

why can't i just only fly trapeze?
what am i going to do this summer?
where am i going to do it?

seattle was so much more springlike than here is. but the magnos at bbg were off the hook yesterday.  glad i went b/c the weather is about to go sadly south, which also means no flying sadly.

i have no relationship with slipnslide buddies littlest kiddo and this is making me quite sad.