arg

beautiful day and i'm going to end up spending it inside.... arg and arg. a little bit my fault and a little bit my stubborn partner's fault

coolhaus

treated myself to one of the things on my list...an ice cream sammy as they say from the gourmet truck. the pear vanilla ice cream was awesome. and the experience was good, but i don't think i'll need to indulge again for $6. one thing on summer list checked off. hopeing to get at least one more checked off today. assuming that even though it's cooler, i don't sweat to death... laundry must be done also.

i forgot

what its like to work with my summer supervisor. she has more going on this summer than normal. yikes. but i am glad i'm not working the regular summer camp job, this psuedo week off is needed, the thought of going to uws and dealing with kids is super not exciting. although found out that i will not be paid for an hour of work each day for lunch break that i do not get to take. bleh. seriously need to find something else to do next summer. went and observed 2 kid acro classes yesterday in prep for my teacher training, was kinda overwhelmed at the amount of work, and left drained rather than enthused. treated myself to a massage, which i have already ruined (and did with in a few hours) yesterday. but it felt super nice, and my alignment was good for an hour or so...positional therapy kinda cool. need to write two 1 paragraph proposals for grants. we will see if my head of school lets me submits them or how much she changes them should hydrate and put away my clothes before class. its getting humid. not looking forward to 90plus days, but the birds outside sound cool. also the only full service grocery store in my neighborhood closed to be replaced by a walgreens. the supermarket sucked, but was vital the the elderly in this community and there are 2 independent pharmacies a block and a half away. kinda sucks. hmmm. want to think of something positive so this doesnt always sound like a complaint. started a new book my mom sent me--19th wife, about mormons; like it so far.

all the guide books are checked out

am i surprised? no. but would be nice to get one on the cheap or puruse just to see how to do the jordan thing. band before balkan beat box was much better than balkan beat box, and had a big following, certainly in the lawn section. about to try on some dresses from over 6 years ago. we'll see. also what to where to a sun night summer wedding? can i do a black cocktail dress? ok just saved by a dress i forgot i have, but have the same issue with it i would have with almost anything... shoes... and this will be a super dancing and no sitting (no sit down dinner) affair. i hate buying shoes... ok. really leaving the house today to finally go to museum, and since its cold out, i don't feel guilt not going to beach...

willi be able to walk tomorrow?

went to this class at the gym last week and could not walk the next day. stretched a bit more today, may take a bath, i should but feeling lazy about it. we'll see if i can walk tomorrow. last day of school ranks among my least favorite days because of all my social anxieties and needs...but it's not about me its about the kids.... oh well. graduation tonight. all the kids said the same thing, was long. next year's class is 50% bigger. yikes.

always so much

i worry about mr civic and i's future, another fight last night, but am i working on it? i am seriously trying to be less lazy, both for us and for me and my future. by lazy i mean, getting up when he asks for help, or not just lying in bed. not like being proactive about jobs or anything... summer. so much i want to do, so little time. (and money) later... went to an accordion concert in a lovely community garden in clinton hill(?) today. mad eup for the utter annoyance of dealing with nysc. i want nysc to give me some compensation for their not courteousness business practice but i will probably leave it be... going to a celebrate brooklyn concert tonight, which helps with the first paragraph. likely ditching a social event afterwards, which doesn't help with all my social anxieties... later... pilates class this morning actually happened at gym. but there was no sign up for the total body class tomorrow (that killed me last week, and i will have to leave graduation asap to get to tomorrow) will try to stretch more, and take a bath afterwards. the balance between what i want to do, and what i feel like i should do to make money....ooof. and how to balance it timewise. but at least i am going to see a show i have wanted to see for over a year on tuesday!

i hated the book cosmopolis

i kinda can't believe its going to be a movie. and i'm not so into david cronenberg. i get that in some ways he's kinda awesome, but i do not like his stuff, its not for me. the trailer also looks nothing like i remember imagining the book. lame night last night. no surprise. neavau cirque at bam tonight though. many new babies all around. time to go to farmers market and have everything be sold out...