why 'm not changing my profile pic to red and pink equal sign

1) i don't get why red and pink
2) and the real reason, b/c we think we are actually doing something by posting a pic.  that is not political action or advocacy and would make me feel super complacent and like i did my part, but i also i did was hop on a trend bandwagon.  of course i have not done any advocacy or called or email or even signed a fucking petition

a) bought an expensive vacuum yesterday.  and matching dishes on the weekend, and new flatware.  what happens when you won't be participating in the marriage potlashes where you buy gifts for people and then they pay you back, instead you buy all for yourself (although in this case with my parents money)

b) have to take a day off for a job interview.  not a biggie except it's a day after vacation.  oops.

c) day full of tears yesterday.  may have been prompted in part by time of the month, which i don't think makes me or mr civic feel any better, but also had all the same roots that always make me cry (tough relationship with parents, bad communication skills, missing close friends)

d) treating myself to a massage today and next wed.  my neck and legs are tight as hell.  need to get in a regular stretch routine.

quick thoughts

i really hope i like the mirror we had made for us.  picking it up today.  love the idea we got it from brookyn flea.

planetarium, sufjan stevens, music at bam.  glad i went, wasnt amazing.  they could have had 2 trombones instead of 7

would not recommend telegraph avenue, but based on how good 2 of his books are will keep reading chabon

annoyed at text layout in NW by zadie smith

much to do today. including tennis clinic and cleaning for parents/passover but lets be real, parents.

worried about odd assortment of people at seder tomorrow.
no second seder plans. feeling odd but also ok about that.

should have tried to get in a load of laundry already.

went to first place of work stomping grounds on friday afternoon, felt like a shock to see how neighborhood has changed-mainly by addition of a mallish thing, also thinking about how i better understand brooklyn now and how a crossroads of locations that area is.

happy with number on scale, but not how clothes fit.  also all my clothes are so shlumpy.

2 job interviews for first two weeks in april.

was at a workshop yesterday with about 20ish maybe more people and they raffled off at least 10 items, sad i didn't win.

blahs, what's new

still reading telegraph avenue.  will finish but won't love it.

haven't sent thank you notes yet.  oops.  or written them, neither has mr civic although he's asked me about it

2 job bites, but was supposed to hear from 1 on friday either way and did not hear at all.  feels too late in the game for some places and like i should get my shit together for others.

more to say.  i like my apt.  need to get a couch, and figure how to make back room functional and cozy.

and get off my ass.

and make friends.

tomorrow is secular anniversary of brother's death.

need to get on taxes also.

finally reading again

it is embarrassing how long it has been since i've read a book, reading Telegraph Avenue now.  It took a good 120 pages or so to get into it, but I am now into it.  it feels good to be into a book.

not sure i'd recommend this one bc it took 120 pages before it picked up, but now chabon is in his flow.