oof

will there ever be a day without a thunderstorm. and there really weren't all that many t-storms when i move to nyc-in fact i thought the lack of them odd.
went to govenor's island yesterday, kinda a cool place, and good place for a picnic. would have been weird to live there in the day. rode over the manhattan bridge for the first time and across canal street (maybe i don't need to do that again)
am stranded at marathon's sort of due to rain-have bike. don't want to leave it here, kinda wanted to bike to kickball.

have been the queen of anxiety dreams as of late. oof-not good.

having one of those days-kind one of those weeks

i really need to drop off my laundry.
my big plans for the day were kinda sidetracked by a 2 hour nap after my shower. oops. but i did get up early to play tennis.
is it too early for beer? i certainly haven't been productive enough..
wouldn't mind another nap.

love him, hate his job

but i need to get over that. b/c he likes his job-which i support, but i hate the hours and how it fucks with my sleep cycle in turn. and then its not like we are getting quality hang out time anyway.
but like my work situation/politics i need to not bitch b/c that just makes it a bigger deal and makes it worse and in this case there is nothing i can do about it. and the worst is yet to come.

in happier news... netflix twisted a balloonamentary. laughed out loud, which i rarely do at movies. and impressively polished.

wondering if i'll ever be able to pay my credit card bill again

i used to always pay my bill in full. now i'm having trouble getting it below a certain amount. i will be making enough money this summer to pay it off, but won't get paid til the end of the summer. so now its juggling the bank accounts-yippie!

here's part of an email draft to slipnslide buddy after she called needing some info for a good reason, not wanting to yell at me or be mad at me as i had first assumed--oy i need to find a good special friend, and officially fire my old one.

do you know what i hate?
that i always assume the worst.
i just a pocket call from the cell phone of a guy i worked for last year and left on not the greatest conditiions. but when i saw him number on caller id i freaked that he wanted soemthing--and obviously it was a bad reason for calling and wanting something.

2 days in a row we'll see how long that lasts

got another unasked for but likely helpful in the end bike tip today. apparently i've been locking my bike wrong and should use the ulock on the back wheel and frame and the cable on the front wheel-but i think its easier the other way.
bought my first pair of bike shorts also, no gel neither place had any and i think the first place tried to bad talk them just b/c they didn't have any. in any case giant maxi padness here i come.

mad it to massmoca for 20 minutes on sunday, glad we got there, sad it was brief and wish that i had gone through the downstairs exhibit rather than what i saw of upstairs. i see big name artists on the bill and feel like i should go see their stuff, but it meant i missed ed ruscha who was part of a group show that looked cooler and i like his stuff better.

as i said on facebook i hate biking in the rain, but the freak shower did cool and dehumid things off so that coney island was idyllic (if a little too windy, couldn't read my papers for them blowing away and all the sand) in terms of temp and sun. glad i went down, it had been too long-although the nathan's lemonade felt watered down.

time to cook for my man and do some work

just put blogging on the summer agenda

lots of stuff on the summer agenda, many work prep related and then also some outdoors related.

went to vermont with marathon this weekend. it was good overall. the nervousness was normal, but proved to not be needed. we had a good time even if the weekend was cut a little short by not coming back on monday.

had a small car incident on the way back. we're fine, i feel like an idiot, and maybe it will make me a smarter driver in the future. it also set me off down a bad path in terms of relative strengths and weaknesses for myself and marathon and myself in general. i need to fire my shrink and get a new one...