dropping balls

i am dropping balls left and right these days. but the biggest one i seem to be dropping is my health/going to the gym/pilates. instead i drop cash to spend on the new apt. and so much crap is still at my place...
oof

there are full blown leaves on the trees

how did that happen.
some things
-i am suspended at the coop
-i signed a new lease for a tiny place with marathon for may 1st
-i have not been to the gym or eating well recently
-wow i am moving in with my boyfriend--issues
-no one wants to hire me
-i am having issues at work
-therapy is hard
-i am overwhelmed by the amount of stuff i have and what to do with
what to keep what to pitch how to get rid of it responsibly
-what happened to my spell check?
-books, oh books
-this online class
-dropping balls, picking them up...
-money

being sick sucks

and i am a total baby about it.
i wonder if i would have gone to work today, i think that would have been a bad idea. its also boring as all hell. esp when you can't concentrate so much. i have tons to do. but expending energy packing doesn't seem prudent at the moment. seriously my head is in a BAD way, but the rest of my body is fine. you all know the drill. annoying.


also annoying. packing, but wanting to feel like i still live in the space. and figuring out what to get rid of and how.

books are the bain of my existance. even if we weren't moving into a TINY space.

i'm cold.

why is it so cold in my apt. i mean i know but still. have much work to do for class and an interview tomorrow. yikes. i have dropped the ball on both. oops.

transit museum tour this morning was disappointing, but also made me think i should move to washington heights.

SUNBURNT ALready

this is not like when i was a kid.
i need to get into putting on sunscreen whenever i leave the house. bleh, but true. i just haven't found one i can deal with for my face, and remember to put on/have with me.

had a lovely day, although at some points i was tired of my company or more just wanted them to not be whistling so i could listen to the birds...went for a picnic on the rockaways by the silver gull club and saw tons of ladybugs at the surf line. it was cool and why were they there? i put a bunch on their backs for them. we went a on a nice walk down to breezy point, but then it got super sad b'c there was a beached seal which was hurt, it made me so sad. we called it in, but i'm not sure anyone was going to come and help.

who knew there was a club like silver gull on the rockaways. now i know. can't afford to go. don't think there are many jews there anyway

hmmm i had other stuff i wanted to write last night but now i can't remember. hope to make it to ps1 today.