The Jon Scott effect

So freshman year of high school I had this crazy huge crush on a senior. One day he gave a bunch of us a ride home and I was on cloud nine that he gave ME a ride home.  Obviously nothing ever happened.  Fast forward 8 years to the days just before school starts senior year.  I.m walking through the quad and pass someone who looks familiar.  We stop and chat and put it together, that its Jon from high school, starting a phd program at wash u.  We exchange info and end up going on one date.  During that date the 14 year old in me was on cloud nine, the 21 year old in me felt pretty meh.  It was later confirmed when I ran into hi. At schnucks (singles shunucks no less) and he was seriously reading one of those all fake news, alien baby tabloids.
So fast forward to last night/now.  There is this kid from pgh who I have had a crush on for 18 years (minus the 14-15 years scattered in between when I forgot he existed).  Ran into him at a wedding in may, remembered he existsted, found out he lived around the corner from me and boom crush again.  Move forward to me having an interest in an intimate life again, and telling him this and us hooking up.  So very disappointing.  I have interest in an enjoyable intimate life.
We.ll see.  It through him for a loop I think.
Tues I think I am going on a date with someone who isn't jewish.  Hmmm.


Separately I fucking love Stephen merritt.

Off to crash a bar mitzvah, as its my bat mitzvah anniversary.

Genius grants announced, one of my fav days of the fall.

They did it early this year.  They also finally raised the amount they give.
And go Aijen poo!

If I.m not meeting up with the rabbi I.m going to a political. If us on a boat in red hook.  So many things I love all in one spot.

Who will I go. To the climate march with?

Ran into some I hooked up with at a wedding a decade ago, on okcupid,  doesn't.t look like it will go anywhere this time either.

Ok going to the rabbi.s, wonder when I.m going see this play on the boat. Sat?

Do not like that it is darkish when I wake up and

Stand in app.

I wanna take part.  Maybe it's a reason to get a smartphone.

Two minutes ago so much to write, at the moment not so much.
Flying on anew rig tomorrow, supposed to be way smaller.
Another friend is leaving nyc.
Another friday night at home alone, although I decided not to go to very social services tonight, in part b.c I didn.t want to run into one night stand since we have plans for tomorrow night.  Will I be invited to sleep over?  I doubt it.  Hope that I will be able to bike though so I can feel empowered, rather than kicked out. And his apt isn.t so easy to get to from here. (Also asked him to wait for me for havdallah.  What.s that about)
Both thinking about him all the time, and not.
Just turned on net flicks and yet can't think of a thing to watch.
Need a book to read.
Had a fancy mocha at 5pm, hope I sleep ok.
Hmmm other things.
Oh well.  Maybe someone will write me on okcupid. Maybe we.ll click.
Haircut.
Meh.
So far work is ok. Adults are annoying but kids are good.  Haven't heard from a parent yet.

Getting me n a bike was the best gift mr civic ever gave me

Coming home from a fwb session, could have sucked on the train from crown heights (3 would be involved) car service is annoying, or I could feel pumped  and like I was doing something for myself, not getting kicked out, and getting to see the awesome sky and hear the crickets.
Comparatively I am drinking so much these days, but in reality not so much, but I like it.
I can't believe he.s never played foosball and its in the gym in his building. Also apparently foosball is a form of exersize?
First Monday went ok.  Not out of the house quite as early as I would like, but it will do. Primary day tomorrow, no idea who to vote for.

Random thoughts

1. Made a plan for, this Sunday night- 1st advanced level trapeze class.  Here.s hoping I can do it.
2. What does happen to all the balls from the us open.  Also I noticed that federrer puts on a new shirt, like rips that tags off when he does a shirt change. Also noticed how many rackets, coming out of plastic. Players use.  I hope that just means that they are being restrung a lot, not that they throw out the whole rackets.  Just thinking of another fun thing that is also wasteful.
3. Cracked and said I could just do the fun parts, knowing that that is all it would be, who knows. Nothing happened yet.
4. Silver reacted well to my mea culpa. Don't think it will change anything but a weight lifted.
5. Special friend is going top be overwhelmed by all I have to tell her.
6. Oh my my credit card bill.
7. You can stream the usopen for free, also could watch for free in the park.  Love it.
8. Going down to the beach after work was great the other day, dunno if I will get it in this week.

And 9 days later its over

I ended it. Sad to see the fun parts go away, but ended it now means we can still be fine around each other.  I/we joked maybe in another 7 years...which he mentioned 21 years in nyc and that made me seriously cringe at the thought.
Left my water bottle at the restaurant in bed sty set night. Annoying place to get to.
Should be at the beach.  Wy am I not.  Humidity is a big answer.
Back to the Internet dating sites....
Back to Sunday nights and telling that they will feel hard now that the summer is over.
Sent silver a big mea culpa. He acknowledged. We.ll see what happens from there.
Must shower.