Head spinning over this boy, or maybe just my fear of being alone

Broke things off with I'm, but wonder if I shouldn't.t have.
Joined a match making site. We.ll see how it goes.

Started this last night.  Each day I think about the boy less. But still wonder.
Trapeze yesterday was super kept for my mind, as was sleeping in today, but going to bbg.  Haven.t been in a couple weeks, trees lots their leaves, but still so nice and grounding and centering as I needed.

BPL did not have book I wanted,  oh well.  Not making in to a musuem today,  but do think I will venture into soho to try and get some leggings.  And maybe a travel mug.

All I did was eat yesterday and a lot of it was junk.  Oops.  But life happens.

26 years later....

I finally got my ears pierced.  It still hurts.  And um yes it does hurt.
Getting over a small cold, didn.t go to shul that I would have liked because of it.
Still frustrated with the boy.  Back to looking at okcupid tonight.  Although tonight.s annoyance is out of his control.

Started listening to serial.  But I wrote that already.  Slowly.
Need to exersize more. Wen to a stupid myocardial release class at a swanky yoga studio. Granted nicest bathroom I.ve seen.  But $30 is way too much for any class like that.
Still haven't written my paper due last week.  Oops.
Large credit card bills.

What will I do over winter break?

Was into the dancing at the protest outside of Batsheva today

Nice easy modern dance.  I.ll take it. Always amazed how lights and costume and music play a role.  Also wondering why not all Israeli acts atk bam have protesters.

First disagreement/issues with the baby.  We.ll see.  I seem to want/need more than he can give. But trying to have feelings good and bad and be communicative either way.

i'm smitten, but maybe shouldn't have said lets be exclusive yet

month later.
roommate is fine.  she watches a lot of tv
think i need to cut off things with the rabbi, mainly b/c i asked the baby if he was dating anyone else and he said no. and we basically said we were exclusive.  term girlfriend was thrown around. i'm not ready for that. he's applying to nyu now. maybe good in the long term but not sure. i was more smitten with him before that conversation.  not that anything about our afternoon changed my feelings. told my mom about him, minus the 26 thing. cant hang out with him that much, he wont. i want more in general.
started listening to serial. would def listen to it all if it were a regular show. but me and podcasts, meh.
festival of light was stupid.
sociale was yummy
forget what i was going to write.