Ooof

i knew better than to finish that book right before bed.
Books and movies about relationships make me sad and cry
And I know it's winter
But it doesn't stop the missing of mr civic and the wanting a connection and the wondering if I.ll find one or if I can build one with mr 3d, and how long and how, esp after our awkward last time together.
I really need to stop being physically I intimate with someone so quickly.

Also my father is a Facebook troll.

proud of myself

still have some important life tasks that would help to make winter easier... but
i was super pumped about how high i was jumping on the trampoline and feeling comfortable with last night, and from that height i was willing to throw some tricks. a year ago i could totally physically jump that high, but i never would have let myself and i certainly wouldn't have let myself.